Diciamo che sto attraversando un periodo di enorme riflessione, e per riflettere ho avuto bisogno di un netto distacco da tutto, non avevo voglia di scrivere, tutto qui.
Insomma come vedete non amo raccontare frottole, amo essere io, non sarei sincera se raccontassi che va sempre tutto bene! Si cade ma ci si rialza! Ed ora? Ed ora nel prossimo post vi mostro qualche nuovo lavoretto e poi tanto tanto altro! Ci sono delle grandi novità che ho da raccontarvi, siete pronte a leggerle? Vi abbraccio forte forte!
Buonissima giornata e non mollate MAI!
How to title a post written after months? .... Last update on 20th June and it is not really optimal for a "blogger" .... do you think so? But the frenetic pace of the pre-holidays, of everyday life and unexpected news sometimes makes you take folds that you would not want and unfortunately you have to give up something ....
What to write above all .... what to tell! I have always loved to write, passion inherited from my maternal grandfather who was incredibly good ... it is no coincidence that we asked him for help with Italian homework .... excellent result guaranteed! : P
My desire is to write a lot, to let you enter into my world and share it with you, which I've always liked to do since I opened my first blog on blogger, post that still make me die laughing! I would love to go back to writing and be active as then here, in my niche of the heart, what makes me feel at home, where writing allows me to feel good, to get rid of negative thoughts, worries, anxieties, allows me to recharge . Writing lightens the soul, it is a pleasure to which I will not so easily give up my life: P. I want to share my huge passion for scrapbooking, a world where I feel "right", I do not know how to explain the feeling I have, I feel completely comfortable, I feel myself, no frustrations, no things that I do not want to do, no to the things that I have to do, just me, my heart, my infinite passion for photography, for the wonderful stories of life that I'm lucky to live, my travels, my adventures, the my messes, my ups and downs. They are not perfect, we are not perfect, but we are unique as we are, of course we can always improve aspects of ourselves or of the life around us that do not satisfy us, but the important thing is to accept, it is good to love!
What have I done in the last few months? Holidays in my niche of the heart with the whole family in tow, made of little things, of Andrea, of whims, of quarrels with Massimo, of those famous ups and downs of which I talked about ... sea, sunsets, new beginnings and of paths that have come to an end, of reflections, of incoming changes. Summer brings with it a moment of pause and reflection that is necessary! I needed silence, to get away from everything and everyone, to listen to myself.
Unfortunately, life does not always go as we would like ... we design it and imagine it in a certain way, but sometimes it does not work out as we would have liked. Envy is not a feeling that fortunately belongs to me but in the dark moments I wonder why certain things happened to me and why the life of some people, however, always seems so simple and perfect. Always everything smooth! Both parents, a job that satisfies, a caring and affectionate husband, an easy economic situation, health, travel ... it's strange ... I have not found answers to these questions, on the web and on social you can not write everything you really have inside ... indiscreet ears behind the scenes ... what I know is that life is not just beautiful smiles and beautiful experiences, life is made of many messes, of many difficulties and .. lucky those who have none, to which everything is always smooth ... personally I'm not lucky enough to be part of this group and anyway I think I'm extremely lucky in so many ways. What complaints you would say to me !!!! I have a home, a job, a lovely child, a nice family, a lot of people who love me seriously ... So what? So I fight to chase my dreams and I believe more than anything in the world, and when I feel lonely to believe it I think of my dad who believed me as much as me, who believed in me and I do it with all the strength I have and even to more if necessary, why? Because life is a boy and you have to live it to the full and we have the duty and not just the right to be happy but to be so we must also have the courage to improve ourselves, to change what does not make us feel good! Never spring! I often hear the phrase "think of those who are worse" .... can i say? I'm a bit broken to compare myself to those who are worse !! I do not want to compare myself to anyone, I want my life to be as I wish it! Is it asking too much? With the illness and death of my father, who I faced only 26 years old, I realized that normalcy is a huge fortune, I wanted nothing more than the "boring normality" but we must also be able to dare, we must believe in ourselves and do not be overwhelmed by the difficulties and problems that life puts before us. You have to smile and find something every day to be grateful and happy for! This is what I want Andrea to learn, dreams come true if you work hard and believe in it! Never give up! Life is a wonderful gift and should not be wasted even for a second!
When one thinks of trouble, problems, one thinks of health, and it is obvious and obvious to be lucky not to have them,i have lived, but in reality the problems that life has fun in ports are many, a real fun to face them! For example, Massi has problems with his work for months now, he never knows if and when his salary will come and live in this way I assure you that it is not at all simple! It's a constant anxiety, even buying a 20 euro shirt becomes a difficult decision ... at forty 'years I certainly did not expect this! I try desperately to divert him and me from this being sick, from the fear of losing my job trying to have fun, to distract us, to go out but in the end I feel like the one who only thinks about having fun .... Couple problems, a couple made of two very different people, opposite I would say, I have always tried to reconcile my romantic dreaming world with the purely realist one of my he ... due to his life experiences and family members who certainly did not help him to have a positive view of life, serious problems both family and economic have always been the backdrop to our history. It was an arduous adventure, he is a boy who does not fear the sacrifice, who is busy, good, available, but also very stubborn, does not like to question himself, has lost the desire to have fun, to laugh, to to play. I miss this a lot, I miss a person to talk to, I miss a person with whom to laugh, with whom I can serenely confront, a person who surprises me but not with a diamond, rather with a piece of toilet paper that says "I love you" ", I miss our exits, I miss the moments only ours, I miss our couple that worked great! Of course we always had problems due to our differences, "live in a world of your own" always repeats me! I miss his mega smiles and his crazy laugh! When you are boys you have a way of facing different life ... I tried not to lose it ... but there are times when I can not remember how, if and how happy we were! Writing these lines is not easy, I assure you, recovering a story of 23 years is not easy, you need a lot of will, you need a strong feeling at the base of everything, you need to be detached from people and things and focus on the couple. Creativity reflects what we have inside, joy or pain.
Pure and simple personal dissatisfaction for a job that you MUST DO to "carry on the shack", a job in which you put great expectations, in a big company, entered there at only 19 years, I was guilty for years wondering why I was not taken in consideration, what I did not have that others had, a work that although I am super lucky to have ... because here to misrepresent and exploit to your liking what you write is a moment .... a job that gave me so much but that also took me so much! A job that has given me enormous frustration but also the opportunity to travel, to have fun, to study, to focus on my dream! It is not easy! I do not know if you know the famous poster of Holstee.com but I made it into a painting of my house. I love reading it and reread it!
Let's say that I'm going through a period of enormous reflection, and to reflect, I needed a clear separation from everything, I did not want to write, that's all.
So as you see I do not like to tell lies, I love being me, I would not be honest if I told you that everything is always good! You fall but get up! And now? And now in the next post I show you some new work and then much more! There are some big news that I have to tell you, are you ready to read them? I hug you loudly!
Very good day and do not give up EVER!